MOM you have been with the Lord so soon.!

  Hemalatha Potgoli (June 29th 1955 - May 9th 2022)

Every one born in this world will have to die one day, the date of death and time is not known to anyone except the Creator. Parents are the image of God in this world, and you have shown love of innocence to me whole life. I miss your innocence and beautiful smile, captured in my eyes and recorded in my memory for ever.

If God (creator) had sealed every new born with date of birth and date of death. Then this world would be full of love, compassion towards each other, as he or she knows that the date of death is fixed.

When you were first diagnosed, we ran from hospitals to doctors for the immediate treatment that can cure you from the deadly disease, none of them gave us ray of hope of curable treatment, as type of cancer you had was rare, life can be only extended and is not curable. We didnt leave our hope, we tried googling all the possible treatments that can cure you, but all said results were disappointing and none gave us any hope. without wasting much time we started your treatment, to tackle the growth of the disease and to shrink the nodules to bring it under control through radiations. Since you were healthy, until 5 radiations the doctors thought you were able to sustain the treatment, and hence they increased the frequency of the radiations. Day after day until the 12 radiations, there were no symptoms of side effects. But then when you complaint Thorne in swallowing, The doctor advised us to insert rice tube for feeding food intake. The intake was still in liquid form, grinded and then fed into the tube. But this was not enough, and you became weak day after day. Due to this you hardly could sit for a while or stand. Your body didn't support strength to be normal. You were again hospitalized, for weakness, it was diagnosed, you were dehydrated and the electrolytes components in the body had reduced below the threshold values. The doctors treated to correct the electrolytes and you remained in the hospital a week. You looked recovered, doctors discharged you home. We all felt you are recovering from the sickness and our hope all revived, that you could soon record your testimony of what Lord has done in your life.

But again new sebses formed side effect of radiations, and this was growing very fast, doctors started treating it, cleaning and advised us to clean wound along with this some antibiotics. We followed the doctors advice and everyday cleaned and applied ointment for weeks. Almost everyday we kept on tracking of the wound healing, tweaking on google and developed small hope that the sickness was getting healed as we were sincerely praying for it. Everything was going fine, until on 4th of May, your face had developed swelling. We then consulted different doctor, he examined you and advised us to admit you for few days. The team started their treatment from day one, and your food intake still not improved, even though we removed rice tube and inserted Peg tube on your stomach so that the feed goes directly to your stomach and health to improve. 

Your health was deteriorating day by day, doctors changed antibiotics, the wound was getting treated and was showing sign of improvement. All day long, all night we hear the buzzing beeps of the digital monitors measuring your Blood Pressure, Saturation, Pulse, any red blink we would call the nurse to apply antibiotics and treat you immediately. All this went smoothly with a hope that you are getting the treatment for your recovery. But then the day had come, which we were not aware, that you heading towards the last days of your life. On 8th of May, it was just normal day of treatment in the hospital, it was Sunday, we never missed the day going to church, but it was exceptional as you were hospitalised. Everyone came to see you and wished speedy recovery. As the day went by, you slowly developed fever, nurse consulted the doctor and again antibiotics were applied. Your fever started increasing, temperature was coming back to normal and then again shooting up, they kept on adding antibiotics, nothing seem working. That day again, many relatives came to see you. 

As the day begin to end, the BP started shooting up and suddenly down, Pulse was getting weak, you were asking us, "Will I recover?" again and again. It was 2:45am early morning hours of 9th Monday, you were severely battling to survive, you tried to breathe normal with support oxygen but that was not enough, the doctor came and increased the oxygen levels so that you can breathe normal, but that could not help at all, and prolonged to breathe lying on sisters shoulders, as you were exhausted completely, not able to take it anymore, at 2:55am you went into gasping taking your last breathe, closing your eyes for ever, saying Good bye! to all of us and give yourself into the hands of the Lord, who hold your hands and greet you in life eternity with Him. We as a family believe and have a hope to see you face to face on the day of rapture.

As a person, you were innocent, and thought us to value God more than anything in this world. You went through lot of hardship to raise us, and hope we as your children satisfied you with all the love, care that God has commanded us to show you. You always deserve the best!, Still I had lot of desire to gift you, but you have gone so soon, my desire remained as dreams which cannot be fulfilled.

I would like to write all those verses from the bible, using which I used to pray (wrestle) with God to heal and your speedy recovery.

Isaiah 41:10, Deuteronomy 28:7, Jeremiah 30:17, Jeremiah 33:6, Jeremiah 33:3, Job 33:4,Psalms 34 Mathew21:21, Mark 16:18, John 14:14, John 15:7, 2Peter 1:4-7, Psalms 91.

I will never able to feel your hands again, that love and strong support physically. But God has himself strengthened us, when we are weak. as it is written " My Grace is sufficient for thee: My strength is made perfect in weakness". On this 21st day of your passing away, God has given us strength to overcome your absence with His love in abundance.